I came back home after having a smoke outside. Being a cold, rainy Sunday, I've chosen to stay indoors. As I tensed my core standing taller by stretching my back, I thought how impossible this felt just a couple of years ago, and that the prescription to stand tall cannot be held for long without engaging in deep work with the body and breath. As I was tensing all my body I thought: the only thing missing is a smile, and with this the muscles in my scalp pulled a smile out of my face.
Then I thought: how appropriate, we can only smile for a moment on will, because soon our will is forgotten and you can't hold the smile. In order to hold a sincere smile, a similar practice much be conducted, which is deepening into emotional work in order to hold emotions and allow them to manifest in the body. Imagining hands pushing from the back of your ears while doing cat as you experience at the negative valence such as disgust of anger, and then pulling your shoulder blades back revealing a surprised smile at cow, while feeling the emotions that arise in the heart, everything in the company of breath should be a good starting exercise.
When I opened the browser to post these thoughts I found my certificates for Let's Encrypt had expired, because some months the self-renewal service stalls or something and I must kill certbot only to revive him again, and then ask him to review everything. He then complains that my version of nginx is too old, that he has to install things elsewhere, like a grumpy old man. Dude, you fall asleep at the job and then complain that nginx is old. nginx, despite its age, has not failed me once, while you are complaining all the time. If I could, I'd downgrade you certbot so that you stop calling nginx old. Teenagers these days.