My couchsurfing guest arrived yesterday. She's a 25 year old Brazilian woman who is vegan, a bodybuilder and a singer. She's very beautiful. Her income comes partially from influencer brand deals and she tutors language online. There's something fishy about her story, but I suspect what she is concealing is not too taboo. When she spoke about the numerous stops she's making in European capitals, she spoke with a lack of enthusiasm, as someone who would come for work. I'm now primed to think sex work due to my close encounters, but then I realized it could be for her influencer activities.
I just realized sex workers and influencers sell their body and I somehow want to break in too. By the rate I'm adopting things that I formerly hated, I will become a vegan yogi-dancer influencer. One of my favorite things to say when I was younger was "If we grow old and you ever find me doing [cringe or old person thing], please put a bullet between my eyes". I'd have a gaping hole in my forehead if my friends followed up with my instructions.
In any case, I mostly hosted her because I want to be comfortable around beautiful women. To be able to look in the eye and have a normal conversation. And I was surprised to find myself perfectly capable of that, perhaps moreso because beauty is this magnet to attention, it requires no effort to engage or be funny etc. We're getting along fine, I feel myself with zero creepy vibes, it feels like I'm an uncle to her. I wonder if it's the age gap, and thus the ineligibility that puts me in the comfort zone. I'll only know if I interact with a beautiful woman who is around my age, yeah I think I'd get more nervous, but perhaps my self-assessment is much worse in my imagination than in practice.
A secondary reason why I'm hosting her was because I was curious about her diet. I favor eating less meat, but in practice a steak is the most convenient and tasty form of protein and I have trouble replacing it. Well, I was a bit disappointed when she told me she travels with kilos of protein powder and is the majority of her calories per day. She eats almost exclusively that, the real food she eats is to treat herself with pastries, sweets and small savory stuff. Still, it made me aware protein powder can be sprinkled over all kinds of food and it's good.
I'll go to yoga with her and Andrés (the roommate with whom I lived in Barcelona, he is visiting Madrid). I should get started!