Meditated: 16min
I will write my personal work log at exploration.work in the morning. My professional work log will be at method.ac/writing in at the end of the work day.
Yesterday I proposed myself to "be more eccentric" as a way of being more authentic to myself, and thus less reliant to weed. During the day I wondered how this is actually actionable for me. It shouldn't be superficial (i.e. being obnoxious or dressing outlandishly, though these have merit for someone like myself).
The day passed without anything beyond utter normality. If pressed I could argue that meditating at the park is "not normal" but, c'mon. At night, having done nothing to impress myself, I went for a walk at the Rambla in search for opportunities to be "eccentric". I didn't know what to do and I soon came back home.
As I lay in bed waiting for sleep, I settled on this: "Do something out of the ordinary, given your current circumstance". This means I could have drawn something, cleaned my bedroom, called mom, whatever goes beyond my current habits. Escaping habits is one of the most difficult things in the world.
However, I think the best way to do this is to become present. For example, right now I'm typing at the library. A man came to sit on my table. He put a book on the table: "L'Aire de les coses", and he's browsing through what seems to be a science fiction book.
The truly eccentric thing for me would be to strike up conversation at the library, but I feel this would be rude. I will simply remove my earbuds signalling that I am not unavailable.
Tomorrow is a holiday in Cataluña. As to join the ebb and flow of the society I live in, I will allow myself to rest tomorrow (how convenient!). I will work/write only if I feel the calling.